The One With at Least Two Words

Every once in a while I find a Facebook gem (of sorts).  Recently, I saw a post with what might be a really cool exercise to try...see what comes out. 

 

I think it might be an example of my optimistic side if I share some of the first phrases I came up with.  They struck me as so simple... yet powerful at the same time.  In no particular order the Top 10 list is:

 

* move forward

 

* have hope

 

* smile now

 

* no regrets

 

* reach higher

 

* stay genuine

 

* don't panic

 

* have faith

 

* love yourself

 

* live well

 

 

The words above aren't meant to have explanations attached to them. I know exactly the points in my life where I needed them for reference and anyone reading can probably apply the same to their own situations. Certain events I've experienced within the past  weeks have made me realize a few things. 1) How I feel about myself is a personal viewpoint and I cannot let what others say or perceive dictate how I'm supposed to feel. 2)  I am my own person and a fully functioning, educated, individual. 3) Laughter and companionship aren't just tangible things, they're meaningful.

 

I can't really explain the changes I've felt within the past few months but I feel different than I did even before Christmas. My circumstances really haven't changed (yet), I just haven't given myself enough credit as to what I have already accomplished and it occurred to me: I drastically lost any hope for whatever my future holds.  Now, I'm finding faith in myself again.  I am a unique breed of person (if you genuinely know me you know what I'm talking about).Once I make up my mind about something one way or the other...there isn't any point in changing it. So the people in my life have to choices: either step aside or jump on my trolley and come with. It's a very black and white approach but it's true. I don't hold anyone's hand to a burner forcing them to stand by me, nor do I expect anyone to fight tooth and nail to keep me alongside them. The right people are worth the struggle, through the bad times, and the reality checks. The right people will find a way to stay regardless of the season.  Even if I ask for advice or guidance, chances are I've already made somewhat of a decision and I only ask because I respect input from those I value in my life. I heard this pearl of wisdom yesterday: trust the process, no matter what happens. I really need to remember it. Someday (even though I don't want to admit it now) I will look back and genuinely understand how everything--good, horrible, mediocre, from this current season of my life--- was  really a series of stepping stones. I refuse to change my personal beliefs. I refuse to settle in life.

 

I refuse to let the rejections or seemingly insurmountable amount stress make me a victim  anymore than situations already have.